Thursday, February 12, 2015

50 Shades of Opinions

Hey guys! Alright so long story short, I've finally decided to right about the mass controversy over the "50 Shades Of Grey" Trilogy, now that the movie is coming out. So here we go...

Honestly, I've read all the books and I didn't find them to all that bad. We must all keep in mind the specific genre it is. It is erotica people. It's supposed to have sex in it. Don't like, don't read. That simple. Now about the whole "Oh that is so wrong". The kink expressed in the book is a kink many people share and I don't see a problem with it, as long as it is consensual. Let us all remember that Anastasia, the main character in the book, WILLINGLY went along with everything Christian did, intill the end. She didn't like something, she left.

I was talking to my mother about it and she expressed the belief that it was whips and chains one page after another untill I explained that actually, the only time they ever had a harsh touch was at the very end when she walked out on him. That descion leads us to the next books of the trilogy where Christian learns to change his ways for the woman he loves.

All in all, the plot line is good considering the genre it was meant to be. The writing itself? Eh, I've read better Fan Fiction by virgins, so yes I'll give you that. But the fact that so many people can criticize this book when it has sold so many copies and, lets be honest, turned on about 80% of them at least, is ridiculous. This is just an issue of people not being comfortable in admitting their own kinks.

Now, with 50 Shades of Grey, many people have been making parody books. I discovered this yesterday when I found out about "50 Shades Of Alice Through the Looking Glass" ....this book was actually the second in the series but it was... eye opening. If you looking for a book to expand your horizons, look no further. I'll say it's pretty promiscuous.

So in that retrospect... 50 Shades of Alice is even worse than the original. And erotica is nothing new, so I don't understand why this certain book is getting all the crap.... that doesn't make sense. There are TONS of books out there just like it. Look up "Chuck Tingle" I freakin dare you.

You wanna talk about something weird? Yeah, let's talk about Chuck Tingle.

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Wednesday, February 11, 2015

New Obsessions

Alright guys, I wanna share my "Weekly Obsessions" with you guys. (hahaha yeah just like superfruit) Anyways...

-New skull backpack
-Midsummer's night dream

So first of all, I've become addicted to a new song called "Sledgehammer". At first I didn't like the song but it totally grew on me. It was meaningful without being deep or depressing with a fun flirty twist. :D

My mother bought me a new backpack and it's so adorable. It's one of those draw string with clasps? I don't know what the style is called but they are becoming increasingly popular. Again, i hated them just for that. Now that I have one though, I really appreciate the design. It's simple but has enough room to hold my essentials. What I love about it most though is it's pattern. it's a simple off-white color with lots of skull and crossbones on it.... IT IS SO ADORABLE I LOVE IT!!!!

Lastly, I've become obsessed with one of Shakespeare' classics. I read Midsummer Night's Dream in 8th grade and appreciated it but I really get it after reading it now. I decided to audition for a production our community theatre is running and I have to prepare a monologue and 16 bars of a song. I decided I'd go the extra mile and try memorizing a Shakespeare monologue. Remembering that I've read Midsummer Night's Dream before, I looked for one there and I have decided on Helena's monologue in Act 3 Scene 2 where she begins "Oh spite! Oh hell! I see you all are bent!" (hehehe I typed that from memory too). I've already memorized 4/17 lines and I only started last night... which is a good thing because the auditions are in two weeks! But, I got to reading the rest of the play along with the monologue and I really understand the words now and have come to appreciate it much more.

Let's just hope all this new found understanding will help me in the audition!!!
Wish me luck guys!

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Monday, February 9, 2015

Sneaky People

Hey guys! So i've ended up in an awkward situation. You see, I've admitted to one of my friends that I like him and he admitted he likes me but I decided I don't wanna date him because he recently broke up with one of my friends.

I can't bring myself to betray a friend like that for my own romantic feelings, I'll probably get over it soon anyways.

In the meantime however, he's very sneaky in the way that he gets to be around me and hug me and other things like liking my neck and touching me.

It feels like a forbidden affair.

I'm in deep shit guys, cast a life line for me!!!!

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Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Black and White but Stuck In the Grey

When your on the outside looking in you see a lot of situations as black and white, and that was me. I thought I knew right from wrong and good justice and it seemed so simple before. Recently, it's not the case. I've found myself actually in the middle of those situations and I don't know what to do anymore. I've come to find out that it's actually more of a grey area than you would think.

Today I found out that Keaton broke up with my friend Phishie.

As a girl, I automatically feel the responsibility to side with her. To make sure she's okay and ostracize the guy. That's what seems like the right thing to do in the situation. That's what I always consented myself to do in the case of that situation. In the case of x-boyfriends, they are off limits and you don't easily forgive them for doing that to a dear friend.

I mean, they've been going out for almost a year now and he just suddenly broke it up... OVER TEXT! They go to different schools but they always see each other in the mornings now. It wasn't a necessity like it was for Adam and I, we lived in two different states. So obviously, that wasn't the right thing to do. Not to mention that it's almost Valentines but that also brings in the question what is the time period that you should avoid breaking up with someone because of Valentines?

The problem is however, Keaton considers me a friend and I him. He's funny and a dear friend to me in this class. But I've only known him to about a week so the bonds of friendship shouldn't be that deep already and easily broken off? Is completely breaking off my friendship with him really the right thing to do?

I really don't want to actually. But I also don't want him to just get off free from hurting a dear friend of mine either.

However, now I'm feeling the guilt because he's currently ignoring me due to the way I'm blaming him for things and listen to some angry music (which I can hear through his headphones). So that makes me feel bad for making him upset...

Can I really make him feel guilty for the way that he feels?

I mean, I did read the text and it was pretty nice considering but still, I feel the obligation as Phishie's friend to not excuse his behavior... because I'm not supposed to, right?

I feel really bad about making Keaton mad right now. Phishie doesn't even seem that upset, just shocked. She said on a scale of 1-10 she's a 7... but part of me feels like that can't be right, just because they dated for almost year.... If she's telling the truth, I guess I could be easier on him but what if she's lying?

I don't know what to do guys! Help!

Blah Blah Blah, write on!

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Monday, January 26, 2015

Cheater Cheater Pumpkin Eaters

Now that I think about it though, why do cheaters get to eat pumpkin? I really like pumpkin pie....

Ok Kenster, get to the point, now is not the time to be distracted.

So anyways, in my A/V class we are supposed to be working on thumbnails for the graphic design team. After getting my paper I began doing MY work with MY ORIGINAL IDEAS and then the annoying puppy just copies my drawings.

-.- like, not even trying to hide it, he just bluntly admits he's just going to copy it.

...What the hell!

I mean, it's not like my idea are that awesome and whatever but still that's annoying. Yes Keaton, person who is currently reading what I'm typing, your being annoying.

I've always been paranoid about people copying my work and not only during tests and things. In group work, I'd often work ahead and I hated when people just started copying me. I also closely guard my poetry and written work for the paranoid thought that someone might steal it and publish it before me. I've always protected my work for fear someone might take credit for it. I mean, someone could just copy my poetry and say it's theirs and what proof would I have that it wasn't?

That scares the hell out of me. It's like my worst nightmare. If someone stole my work... I think my life would be over. I would never be able to get over it. I'd be so upset i'd go ballistic!

Blah blah blah, write on!

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Friday, January 23, 2015


My two friends that are currently laying around on me I have decided need proper introductions.

Firstly, Keaton.

The annoying little puppy that kidnaps my arm and lays on me. Also Phishie's boyfriend. He is also throughly convinced that the powered in my necklace is cocaine. (eye roll) It's just some substance that glows in the dark, geez!

Then Jennifer

Who also says "It could be cocaine". A short and adorable manga fanatic. She dreams of being a manga artist herself someday and omg I want to read that. She also looks very smart. Got that nerd look about her that's just awesome.

Keaton says that people are probably starring at us like "Look at those weird people over there" well, that'd be true. He's wrapped around my right arm, laying on it while Jennifer lays her head on her hands which are resting on his shoulder. However, I think what is going through our class mates minds right now is more like "That looks like some weird oragy" (<-- word I don't know how to spell ugg)

Jennifer says "It could be"

Guys, you should be concerned for me.

Also, we have decided that Keaton is my 'little brother'. Don't ask me how that happened. He claims he's addicted to cocaine but as the fact that I don't believe that, I won't confirm it since he's just talking out his ass.

Jennifer: Wouldn't that just be farting?
Keaton: Yeah, I'm not farting!
Me: (proceeds to laugh followed by a coughing fit)
Keaton: stop coughing... actually, next time that happens, cough on me... i wanna get sick.
Me: (thinking: You're an idiot)

They are both currently wrapped around my like ivy and claiming that's a hug. Not that I mind but... it's weird. and inhibits my ability to write.

Apparently I shouldn't have said that because now he'll never let go -.-

Well guys, I'm pretty sure you stopped reading a thousand words ago so let's end this post here, lol.  Wish me luck on getting out of this hug hold predicament!

Hug you later, write on!

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Ps: Now you guys know the everyday crazies that I deal with.

The Backstory

The backstory of my first romance as requested by the annoying puppy on my arm. (Keaton)

(sigh) Alright, here goes.

So I went on a cruise this summer. The only thing for a teen to do on a cruise is to spend all day in the Teen club with the other teens, running around the ship till 2 am in the morning of course, lol. In said club I met this guy named Adam. I kid you not the first thing I thought when I saw him was "Wow, he's kinda cute... scratch that, he's hot" Hahaha, thanks hormones. Anyways, low and behold he already had a cruise ship girlfriend. (So how the hell did you end up with him? You ask, well I'll tell you) This girl was named Bailey. Now er... well, to tell you the truth Bailey ended up being a capitol bitch heartbreaker. But before this ugly side of her came out, our group was having a problem. See, Bailey's dad had seen Adam trying to hug Bailey, didn't even know they were going out yet, and immediately would not let him near her. For some reason the guy hated him. Now that would be all well and dandy except for the fact that the group of us, (Adam, Bailey, Andrew, Jade, Isaiah and I) had decided to go to the hypnotist show... where Bailey's parents were too. So low and behold we decided that Adam needed to have a fake girlfriend for the night while in the presence of her parents....

Wanna take a guess who got drafted for the job?


Yep, my first boyfriend was my fake boyfriend first....

So we were playing the part of the couple canoodling in the corner and whatever and I was thinking Adam was REALLY selling it. I mean, i didn't think the amount of cuddling was necessary but he was doing it anyways. Well, I already liked the guy and it was just acting so I thought "What the hell, might as well" So I went all out too.

We got back to the club and Bailey was jealous. And mad. Very mad. Not at me, but at Adam. Now, honestly, IT WAS HER IDEA IN THE FIRST PLACE! I mean... was it really necessary? All they had to do was NOT sit together. And in revenge, she started getting all lovely with Andrew during the show to show us up. She knew he was only acting so I'm not sure what her problem was.

Anways, they got back together... sorta. At the end of the day though we were joking about "Bandrew" and the other ways that she was being a player. Safe to say by the end of night they were over even if she didn't know it yet...

So the night ended with a stroll to the front of the cruise ship where Adam and I shared a romantic kiss underneath the stars that night.

I did feel guilty about how it happened but not very much after how she blew up afterwords. She kissed a guy... then went across the room and kissed a girl who actually had feeling for her... while they were both in the same room and watching... and asked Andrew to be her fake bae to make Adam jealous............

These are the moment in life where I go... "Wth?"

Well, after we parted from the cruise ship our relationship continued via text for two months. We shared a few phone calls but he has anxiety over the phone so I understood. However, also near his birthday, we were emailing when he admits THERE IS A BOMB THREAT AT HIS SCHOOL!!! I almost had a heart attack. Welcoming a distraction, I sent him a story I had written for his birthday along with a picture I had drawn to go with it. We found out we had alot in common. In almost every  restaurant I could name we would get the exact same thing with only one difference. It was pretty cool.

In the end, he couldn't get over his life long crush on his best friend and we broke up. I will admit I cried my heart out but after a day of moping around, I felt better and was able to come to terms with it.

My only wish now is that he'll finally go after her and they will be happy together! :D

So, that's the basics for now. I could go in tons of detail but eh. Whateves. I'm over it and dwelling on it won't change anything. Plus, those insignificant details don't make a difference either.

Bye for now, write on!

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ps: Jennifer (another girl in my class) and Keaton and thoroughly convinced I need cheering up and are proceeding to make my cheeks smile, lay on me, and draw on my hands. No, I don't have an explanation for their craziness either. I'll tell you when I find one.